Browsing through my archives, I found an old blog post of mine, which I have managed to retrieve at a very apt time in my life, particularly as I feel like I'm running around a lot and putting a lot of (unnecessary? necessary?) pressure on myself.
It's amazing looking at the nineteen year old me... and realising I have not changed a single bit. Worrying, ain't it? Isn't it odd what you really need to hear... well... comes from within you? Quite literally?!
It's amazing looking at the nineteen year old me... and realising I have not changed a single bit. Worrying, ain't it? Isn't it odd what you really need to hear... well... comes from within you? Quite literally?!
There comes a moment in your life when you just have to let yourself be. When you know you can learn learn learn explore explore explore keep on questioning, thinking, debating, discussing, testing yourself and pushing yourself to the limit... but sometimes just... being... existing is enough...
Sometimes you have to just let that storm in that teacup be. I have a million and one thoughts and questions in my head right now, and I long to just sit with someone and talk the night away... but at the same time, I know that if that person was to be by my side right now, all I'd do is just sit there in silence.
There are so many things in this world to learn about, to experience, to talk about, to discuss and to constantly keep on stimulating yourself... but... I don't know how to explain it... it's like... the power of life itself is enough, because the presence of that body next to you is conversation enough in its own breathing silence, and you don't need any more answers. For that moment, at least. Maybe with a good drink (or three) in your hand.
Just let yourself be.
And on that note, I go off to sleep....And on that note, I go off to start my Friday morning. For anyone reading this, here's hoping the storm in your teacup is tempering itself down to a calmer rhythm, too!
(Fun fact: This photo was actually taken at sunrise, by Sunrise, around half an hour from my home town... wait, what, your mind isn't blown yet?! Sheesh. So much for trying to be poetic with the little boat and the rocks behind it that it's escaping the horizon in front of it that it is reaching out for, yadda yadda yadda...)
4 comments:
I loved the photo.
Your 19 year self was wise but you're even wiser now!
It is definitely okay to just exist, sometimes. It's all you can do. And it's more than enough, most days.
P.S. I never asked you what is it with you and sunrise?
Reminds me of me and sunset!
You haven't written in a while?
It has been a really long time since you wrote. All okay I hope.
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